Long time

Hi ladies. WOW - it's been a long time. I got really off track and had a hard time getting back on. I ate awful when Bob's mom was in the hospital because there weren't a lot of healthy options, and frankly, I didn't care much in the moment. (Praise the Lord - she is home now and we can't notice any brain damage! This is a miracle! Thank you for your prayers!) Then last week, I started my new job and this perpetuated the bad habits (eating too much and not exercising) because I wanted to eat out with my new coworkers and make friends and I was too exhausted at night to work out because I'm not used to getting up early in the morning. I'm starting to adjust - kind of. Clearly not getting enough sleep still though since I have to be up in less than 6 hours. I'll need to get a better handle on this, or I'll run myself into the ground. I just had to take a few minutes and write though. Do you ever have a mental block with something? Like you put it off and put it off and then it seems harder and harder to do? And so you wait, and it gets even harder? That's where I got with this blog. Bob encouraged me to get back on the wagon though and ask for encouragement. I'm floundering a bit. I did work out this evening with Bob while watching some TV. It was my idea and he at first was not into it. After watching me step on and off of a chair for a bit though, he got motivated and we did it together. It was pretty fun. I haven't gained too much through all of this, but it's really an opportunity cost. I could have lost 6 lbs in the last 3 weeks, but instead I've gained 1. I suppose minor setbacks are ok. We're coming to crunch time though soon - and I really can't afford to waste weeks. Ok, I'll keep you posted ladies. Thanks for being here - it REALLY does help to spur me on.

Tragedy Strikes

Hi ladies. My energy is so drained, but I wanted to hop on for a quick post. Bob's mom had a brain anuerysm on Friday night. We were in the hospital all night and most of Saturday. She made it through surgery and is up talking a bit today but for the next 3 weeks, she's at risk for vaso spasms (stroke) and could die or suffer brain damage. She was totally healthy and this came as a total shock to us. I am physically and emotionally drained but have been trying to do anything I can to support Bob. We are a good team and have really pulled together during this tough time. If you're a praying person, her name (yes - actually her real name!) is Kay. We have been lifting her up in prayer and know that the Lord's hand is on her. I have the next two weeks off before I start a new job and so I'll be spending a lot of time in the hospital with her. I'm so glad that I'm available to go.

As far as food goes, I ate crap all weekend. In the midst of tragedy, eating within my restricted calorie allotment doesn't seem so important. It is there in the back of my mind, that I don't want to shoot all of my progress though. I haven't weighed in since Thursday and am sure it's not good - unless being incredibly stressed also burns tons of calories. I'm hoping to get back on track this week, but am not sure when I'll be at the mercy of the hospital cafeteria for my lunches. Maybe I could buy food and take lunches there. Too late for tomorrow, but maybe the next day? Ok, I need sleep very badly. Goodnight all.